Frank retires today - it's his last day after 30+ years with one company.  Does that even happen anymore?

We know that big change is coming, but exactly what form the new "us" will take is still, to some extent, up in the air. 

Plans we made a year ago are supposedly still good plans, they just keep getting pushed back.  I want him to take some untakebackable step before I do.  I rescinded my offer to let him move in before we are married - so he's to sell his house first and find an apartment until I sell mine and we buy a house together.  Neither of us wants two mortgages - much less three.  One must sell first and his is in the better neighborhood, newer, and not full of ten years of kid-abuse.  Not that kind!  Kids-abusing-house kind!  Yikes, what google list will pull me up now.

We both agree that this (my) house is just too small to suddenly accomodate him and his stuff, especially since Frank hasn't ever lived with three rowdy, rambunctious boys and it will be summer soon - with all three of them home and full of vinegar.  That's the main thing, not the physical space.

Meanwhile, his family is in town and I'm worried about work layoffs and swine flu and, by the way, a script that is less than half done and due at midnight!

On that note..gotta go!

Writing again, losing weight again, feeling again.  I guess feeling came first.  Amazing how complete the shutdown is during emotional turmoil.  I did not say "crisis."  Turmoil as in tempest.  Yes or no.  On or off.  Stay or go. 

So.  It is apparently stay.  And we are recommitted.  And I believe in it about 80%, which actually isn't that great.  Still got some self-preservation hiccups, okay.

Yes writing. Script frenzy, believe it or not, and I need to get back to it.  I rediscovered that I like me some stageplay!  I wonder if I still have the one-act that I wrote in high school.  I really liked it at the time.  Something about a subway, which is funny, since I'd never even seen a subway in high school, much less learned enough about one to base a whole play on it.

More later, yes, promise, true, at least... I'm 80% sure, which is about as sure as I get anymore....